I wanted to post only this entry up tml after I’ve completed my exams before I’m gg home.. but since I’ve completed writing the entry I decided to post it earlier loh.. since 1 more day wldnt make much difference too.. I wldnt want to talk about exams, I’ll talk about it only after I got my results.. whatever the case is, I’ve 尽力了，尽了力就好。。
Ok my entry is basically separated into 3 segments, my current views on friendship, life and love.. I dint re read again I juz typw whatever comes to mind at the pt in time, so may be a bit messy.. qt long.. so those who wants to read, read, don’t want to read, don’t read loh.. haha.. enjoy…

我的友情观：
Guess many of u know about Linda’s entry, if not please go read it coz I’m sharing my two cents worth of thinking also.. As I said before, at 1 stage of time frnz are evrythn, until u met ‘the one’ then it becomes bf are evrythn, and til u get the 1st ultimate heartbreak and u realized how far apart you hav drifted from ur frnz den u start to regret not cherishing frnz whilst u hav bf.. but whn u fall into a r/s again, u 4got about frnz again.. at this stage of life, 20 yrs old, u start to realize many ppl have regretted neglecting their frnz at some pt of their life.. however, u duno how long the friendship will last, e guy whos by ur side, if nth goes wrong may be ur husband in future too.. so thrs no right or wrong in being 重色轻友 now.. I also duno what type of person I will be when I got attached but what i want to say is, I definitely still want my frnz around even if I’m 40 or 50 yrs old.. I look at my mum, she don’t hav many frnz, and if they ever met up its for gambling session and those ppl are out to win her money, I noe I wldnt wan this kind of frnz..

I duno we are considered getting closer or drifting apart.. perhaps I nv make the effort to meet up w u girls so tts y u girls don’t put up the effort in meeting me also.. tts e difference between bf and frnz.. bf, even if he doesn’t make the effort to meet u u will still go all the way juz to meet him.. for frnz, they have the mentality whats the pt when u don’t bother, why sld I bothr as well.. and thrs a diff between having an army bf and an outside bf.. for army bf., ur Saturdays are gone.. if u dun agree w me, its okie, tts my views.. u will regret it someday whn u found out tt its actually so pathetic that for the past months ur sat is spend only w bf and nth else, I seek agreement from Linda shiqi and even doreen.. tts not v healthy.. I think tt mayb for some of my frnz not now lah, but 1 sld actually have the choice to choose between gg out w frnz or bf.. for those having army bf, I understand its no choice coz sat is the only free day.. but anyway tts all I wan say about the bf thingy, not much of a prob btw me n frnz since we dun usually go out on sat also..

And I cherished the few bonds that I had built up with many ppl during this period.. the tagboard forum thingy, I duno hw it started but I actually enjoyed it.. It really makes me look forward to checking out the different tags each day.. and surfing through their blogs made me realize many things about my close frnz frnz that I dint noe before.. mayb this tag board thingy will end tml after I’ve gone home, but I hope it wldnt, or get revived whn I come back haha..

And my hall mates.. bonds that I’ve built up with the girls.. at least now I noe whnever I dun have dinner khakis, they are there.. and of coz Law, though he dint come back esp for me but still I’m thankful he’s around.. at least he pei me for dinr straight after he came back hall after I’ve eaten 1 week of can 5 food..


我的人生观：
Staying alone in hall for the past few months have definitely brought a change in me.. and I guess is something many of u cant understand.. fancy being coped up in hall for 13days ALONE.. yes u may be a loner at home or u may not be close w ur family, but still staying alone is different.. I cherish my independence, its something tt came to me not quite easily but still I’m glad I achieved it.. I definitely miss the small talks, having some1 to talk to when you are feeling all stressed up.. and having an all time dinner mate without having to beg ppl to dine with you coz u are so sick of packing the same food that u have eaten for evry meal evry single day.. now, I find it easier to talk to machines too haa..

I guess it’s a period in life when u did ur pause and think what I’ve gone through in the past months, what I’ve achieved and what I’ve been missing out.. yes, I still love my frnz though we may be missing out the happenings in each other’s life, I hope we get more chance to meet up since now I’m having my breaks.. Alright I’ll go and find you’ll but pls be appreciative and reciprocate.. it’s v important to be appreciative and cherish ppl around you.. tts y I say the person I missed most during this period is my mama.. though whn I get home I may be harsh to her or continue throw my missy temper, I still love her and I will try to be nicer to her, mayb help her do more household chores hei.. I guess she misses me too, 2 whole weeks nv c me loh..

我的感情观：
我宁愿去等待一个自己喜欢的人，也不愿去接受一个自己没有感觉的人。 虽然等待不好受，但至少我已经习惯了，我相信勉强自己投入会比等待来得痛苦。 也许有一天，当我等累了， 或是想法变了，我会随便找一个人来谈恋爱， 但直到那天的来临，我还是希望等待一个自己喜欢的人。

Yup I guess an ending is reached.. or it sldnt be termed as an ending too since we had no beginning.. I will make it clear once and for all and I’ve already typed what I want to say in my next mail, I will send it to him tml.. I’m a dare to love dare to hate person, no feelings means cant be forced le.. I tried but I failed.. and I noe I wldnt want a coward who cant even says out his feelings as a bf.. yup, my stand is clear, support me..

I duno how many of u are reading through this entire entry, but if u did, I thank u for that, I thank u for taking the effort to know about me and what’s happening in my life..


原来最不公平的事是你一直希望他会懂，
但你不敢说，应为你怕你们之间变质，
而其实你不知道他是懂的，只是你不懂他懂，
到最后当你告诉他你曾经喜欢他的时候，他竟然告诉你他懂了，
而他不说，是应为比你更怕你们之间变质。。