This is the 2nd time i have cried so badly since he left. The first time was when my mum maligned me and i felt very 委屈 and this time, i just felt so lost and helpless.

I wanted to go his house for dinr but i realize i cant start the car. The batttery must have gone flat as i had not started the car for 3 weeks. No choice, have to seek help.

first person i called was my bro since he had similar experience with the car. he didnt pick up the phone (fyi we had not been talking for at least 1 wk). then he sms me to say he's gg gf hse. so i call him again, and his cold reply was "u have to go to a car repair shop to get a cable then get anthr car to charge". so i juz hang up after a "ok"

second person i called was his sis. to ask if his uncle will know what to do not. as his uncle not at their hse yet, she gave me his aunt no to call. i tried to call but to no avail.

third person i called was my dad. he is currently outside so he say he will take a look when he come back.


After which, i juz sat in the car for 5min, stoning. and realize that the battery has gone completely flat that i cant even roll up the window and i cant lock the door with the remote. after trying countless times, the window is 80% rolled up, no more batt to close it fully.

Then i sms his sis to say i wldnt be gg as i have to seek help for the car. ah ma cooked curry for me again. but thrs no way i would be gg given my break down state of mind. so she sms me that her aunt will bring me the curry latr.

and so i went home. i can do nothing but cry and cry and cry. i tried to call him, but thrs no reception at all. so i sms about 6-7 of my friends but none are able to help. and i cant do anything but cry and cry again...

then his sis called me. she say her uncle and aunt will come down later to c how they can help and also bring me the curry. and upon hearing my voice, she ask if i got a flu,of coz i replied ya. but the fact is my voice has already changed from all the crying... and my tears are still dropping with this entry..

even my closest family cant be bothered, how else would i expect others to help.. when yy bump into othr ppl car tt time, we were both afraid but somehow we had each othr and evrythn juz seem solvable. but now, 有没有人明白我有多么无助，多么孤独？